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What up world,

Today is the start something new. I'm completely done with enjoying the bar tending life. I hate it. It's not fun anymore like it use to be. The money isn't as good as you use to be too. I'm actually always broke. I'm barely making it some weeks. I just think it's time to find something else full time. I'm so committed to this job and it's not paying off.

I wish I could just take pictures of the stuff I like and get paid a lot of money for it. One can dream, but I don't think it can't be done. I just don't know the market well enough. I also think once I turn it into a career that it might take the fun out of it. I enjoy going out and seeing something no one ever sees and photographing it. I enjoy the work in the darkroom, because for some reason I feel at peace with me and my work there. No one can duplicate or steal an idea from me in the darkroom, because it's just me alone to enjoy in own craziness. In the darkroom, I have no one to ask; "do you like this, is this ok, or anything" because it's just me doing all the creating. I have to trust myself to know that I'm creating something special that no one can touch. I LOVE IT(I'm smiling right now.) Just thinking about it makes my smile from ear to ear, like when someone tends ask me about my daughter and I can't help but smile because she is amazing.
On another note, I finally got all of my Dj equipment in, just in time to practice a bit and play my show last Thursday. The show went well, yet it could have been better. I wish more people would come to see me play. I honestly think I'm pretty good. The people who are there are always coming up to me asking me when am i spinning again because they love it. I'm not giving up, because I know that no one is spinning the s**t that I'm spinning right now and I also know that I'm spinning good music. I will be rocking packed parties i'm determined. I'm just gonna keep finding more and more music and practicing my ass off. My mom says "you can never stop learning" and that's how I live my life.